For people who really, truly struggle with depression we can sometimes feel like, during a depressive episode, our depression is who we are and it’s who we will always be. But that’s not true. Having depression will never be who you are. Sometimes it’s hard to think that one day it will be gone or ever get better. I’ve been there way too many times to count.
For me, I’ve realized that my depression gets to its peak when I am stressed out or doing something that doesn’t make me particularly happy, like working a job I don’t like, for example. I’ve realized that if I’m going to be unhappy while doing something that makes me so, it’s not worth it. It never is.
I constantly have someone in my ear trying to tell me what they think I should be doing and how I should be doing it. They tell me how I should feel and make me think that my depression is my fault. But that’s just not true and it’s also not their life. This is my life. I know what will make me happy but I get so scared of what those same people will think of me if I do it.
I know that sometimes it can feel like your depression is taking over your life and that those negative thoughts are eating away at your brain and pretty soon you won’t be you anymore. But remember this in those moments: Your depression does not define you. Tomorrow is a new day and a chance to start over. Learn to fight off those negative thoughts. Learn to remind yourself that the you that you are while you’re depressed is not you. The you that you are when you’re in a place you love, laughing with your loved ones, not wanting a good moment to end… that’s the real you.
Depression makes you strong. It makes you a better person whether you realize it or not. Having depression isn’t going to destroy you as long as you don’t let it.
Thanks for reading xoxo.